I'm so proud of my foster daughter and the young woman that I am discovering her to be and I am so mad at everyone that has cast her out up until this point. I see a girl that is funny and sarcastic, that is fascinated with science, asks the most interesting (and sometimes off the wall) questions. I have to pry her off the computer where she is content to sit and look up worship songs on you tube all day.
But seriously, how could so many be so blind to her beauty and amazing potential? While driving to an appointment, I told her that we care about her immensely and that making a mistake cannot and will not jeopardize that or her ability to stay with us. She fell quiet. I fumbled around in my mind, unsure of what to say or do. I tried to lightheartedly say, "You can't get rid of us that easily." I tried to catch her eye and reassure her with a smile. "Okay?" Turning her head quickly to hide the tears welling in her eyes, she softly said, "okay." With my own tears beginning to form, I too, turned my head attempting to concentrate on the road. She doesn't understand, and didn't need to see it yet, but my heart truly aches for her. Silently I prayed, God help this to work, this amazing kid, your kid, help her to find love and stability in our home, to learn what it is to be loved and to show love, to know you. And when it gets rough guide my words and actions to be a reflection of you. Let this be her last home.